Finding new  housing seems to be about outsmarting the landlords, they want their money and that is all they are concerned about.  I wish I knew better how to navigate these terrible two's l- lords.  They make your life so difficult it isn't worth it! When you're all done you're so stressed from trying to get into the place you'd think you were getting a palace out of it!! No, it's worse than I thought!! So I've been trying to get a response from the Management company that manages an apartment on North Broadway.  It's been months and I still haven't spoken to any body!! I finally got them to send me the application which took some serious doing, and then I waited at the door and met the Super who told me that there is availability in the building, it is just a matter of getting the okay from the management company.  That is another impossibility!! They refuse to respond to me at all.  I have left messages, posted on their form on their web page, nothing doing!! What do I have to go through to get through to somebody??!!!  It is despicable what kind of power they wield here!!   No I am not playing games, I need a roof over my head or I'm going to lose my section 8 voucher people!! This is literally the move the mountain train, I just can't do it!!

  Dealing with bad landlords is like living in a place you don't want to be or wish for your worst enemy!! I cannot deal with another bad landlord.  Two days ago I had no heat or hot water!! I have put up with so much since i left my home.  Every landlord I've had as some kind of quirk and especially big time arrogance!   I would never treat a tenant the way they have treated me!! I wish things were different but it is a landlord's market and it seems that the politicians want to keep it that way!! We suffer at their hands and no one cares or tries to do anything about the situation!!   All the good things I have missed in my life because of constraints being put on it!! I feel like I barely made a decision about myself in my life!! Things always go the way others seem to push on me, but I have barely any control on my own life!! I don't like living this way and when I try to make the effort to make big changes, it is very difficult to move the heavy mountains surrounding me!!  I have seen so many people commit suicide in my life, not that I watched it, but they were my friends or acquaintances and I suffered their loss!!
   Life can get really scary when someone close to you is really suffering and watching someone come close to death, as my mother did this past year while in the hospital for a month, was a big stress for me and for my children as well.  But she pulled through it ans so did we.    However, I don't want to go back there, it was very push and go there for a while.  So now I'm looking forward to moving into a new place but it seems that there are no places to be found here in Yonkers.   The landlords have the foot up on us as we don't have a choice and they can ask anything and get it!! It is so frustrating to go through this; having the door slammed in my face at every turn.  It just keeps proving to me that others try to make things seem so simple, but why don't they go and find a place for me to live.   Oh you have all the resources in place, so just go and find a place...it's not that easy!!   If it was, I'd be there already, but the rents here in Westchester are astronomical and I have a section 8 voucher, that immediately puts a black mark on my chest!! I don't know where all those programs are who are fighting for fair housing, they don't actually help us down here in the trenches!! Where are they when you really need them??!!!

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   I am always battling for something, in life that never seems to end.  For  now I am battling to hold onto my housing.  Things are looking better but at the same time I have to give up for every little thing I receive!!  My rights to what little income I had are being taken over and meanwhile my landlord gets his druthers!!! That is what irks me no end!!  They can claim all kinds of money that I owe them but when it comes to me, I do not get what I need on all fronts!!  When the agencies who say they will help you barely come through you know you've hit a low point!!   Everyone likes to talk big, but passing out the bucks is another story!! I feel like I've been mowed down by the system.  It really looms out of control!

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   Well things are getting tight, with all the economic hardships around today you can't wink.  My wallet was stolen , my phone was stolen, and I had my email hacked.  People must think you're crazy when you tell them things like that.  They seem to not know how or not want to help you under those circumstances.  I wish that the world was a friendlier place.  But there is a big dichotomy between the haves and the have not's today.  The divide only seems to be getting wider not narrower, and when they say that the employment picture is getting better, I just wonder whose angle are they viewing it from any way.  Life goes on with me or without me. and sometimes I feel very separated through the big divide.  I feel as though I don't have much to show for my time and that things could be  a lot better.  People talk of hope and change but I want to see it in action, not just a feat of the imagination.     Too many people are being put under attack and the freedom of the good old days feels like a thing of the past.  I want to see change just as much as anyone else does.   I thought when Obama came into office we had real change in store but since then I think we have all be a little disillusioned.  We don't have ways that can lead us to rectify the situation, and I think that the big thinkers should be called onto get things done for our country and I hope that the violence surrounding us doesn't draw in this country to take more adverse reactions to the foothold we do have, and run us amok to war again.  We have got to keep our heads attached and our shirts on.  

  I don't suppose that most people see things from the underside, however when you're down there, it's hard to visualize yourself on the upside.  Like landlords, they think they own the world.  They don't, they don't own you or me, they just think they are all powerful and keep people down while they rack in the money.  I hate that!!!   My landlord is a total pisser, I hate them, whenever I have an issue, they see me as a pain in the butt.  I see their crap as a real pain in the butt.  They take forever to come around when you have an issue and then when they do, they do a poor job.  When my toilet seat recently cracked in two, he came three or so days later and then complained that if I hadn't broken it, no one was near it when it broke,  it would have lasted 20 years.  I think he was a little off the cuff.  So when he put it back on he didn't secure it tightly so now it slides all over the place.  And you know he's not coming back.Now my living room light is completely out, and is he showing up to change that?  NO he's not!!!  Well my rasp disappeared, I know who's got that....  We really need to retain some rights here.  Now what are they doing?  They upped the rent by $50 as if it wasn't already too damn high!! Now I'm in court and I have got to go through some shenanigans!!  When this all blows over, I'm out!!!! OUT! OUT! OUT!.  .

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