I think that going to college is something that should be respected. But as going back to school as an older student, I get all kinds of negativity from the younger generation. It is all very hard to take. Everyone is playing me the bums rush. I try to get active, as my school is full of activity, but I get kicked to the curb consistently, either from students or teachers. The attitudes prevail, and there is no real thought out caring behaviors leading to ostracizing in the worst way. But when I try to call them on it, it only gets regurgitated back into my lap. I really hate this continual lack of respect and total lack of responsibility towards other people without any sense of decency to others at all. I wish that they could be at the receiving end of things on their terms and see how those kind of reactions truly feel. It doesn't make any difference because it eats away at you from the inside and makes you feel distressed and disgusted and every one wonders about our attitude. It's about time they took a good look at their attitudes. I am tired of this whole burgeoning recklessness from day to day that doesn't relent. Every one is supposed to grin and bear it. But not everyone really wants to. I am very fed up with the things that I'm supposed to swallow short of laying down and playing dead for them. I'm good and tired of the whole insanity. What's more, the people who are being paid to help you make heads or tails of things, relinquish all responsibilities in the picture and get you all rolled over on, and then they expect you to jump for joy. I am tired of the onslaught of the devious track of they as opposed to I. It is truly a mechanism set up for distrust. They all get their jabs in but we can't get in a word edgewise, and I come out feeling thoroughly disgusted. They continually back stab to the final degree, and I am left not only perturbed, but insulted and frustrated over their complete showing of arrogance. It seems that only the dastardly arrogant survive under these conditions. I am very tired of being condemned. It doesn't make for good social commentary. And that is what is happening all around me, I am being squeezed out to the pit of my bones and then some. As long as they don't feel what is happening, I am sorry for them. People run around as some numb machines, just plowing down everyone in their way.
