Whenever I get into a situation that I don't think I can handle, somebody invariably has to say, 'you're strong; or you're a survivor, I know you will find somehow to handle it.' I hate when they say that. It always puts me on a run for a way to close up the hole. But I never really get out of the hole. It's some way they always seem to be able to put the problem back into my lap, They always win, and you always lose. It's like dealing with a salesman, They are always out to get their hands on your money, one way or another. And they seem to do a really good job of it. But I'm tired of being the one who is always out of the money. It isn't working out for me and doesn't do me a whole lot of beneficial things. Just more debt over my head. And at this point, I can't find the innovative approach to getting out from under the financial burdens which are surrounding my life. It's always just out there, just beyond your reach.
And today they're doing a similar thing with the budget cuts to SUNY. I think it is an every day occurrence that they cut out the important programs to feed something that they feel compassionate about. Meanwhile not everyone shares the same passions. So they didn't ask me if I thought it was a good idea to cut school budgets and make sure I don't get on college work study. Or that I haven't been able to find employment for the longest. And all those applications that want me to justify my time spent unemployed. What should I say to them? That it's because you lovely people don't think I am competent enough to work in your empty shell of a stress-er game, where I go home absolutely exhausted from all the demands being made on me throughout my workday? I just don't know what to say. And in today's world, presentation counts for a whole lot. That seems to be what everyone is pounding into our heads. I just feel like I'm up against a piece of negativity day in and day out. And that my priorities turn to dust. They get devoured by the needs of the masses which I am surrounded by on a daily basis. It's not a fun condition but a stressful one.
And today they're doing a similar thing with the budget cuts to SUNY. I think it is an every day occurrence that they cut out the important programs to feed something that they feel compassionate about. Meanwhile not everyone shares the same passions. So they didn't ask me if I thought it was a good idea to cut school budgets and make sure I don't get on college work study. Or that I haven't been able to find employment for the longest. And all those applications that want me to justify my time spent unemployed. What should I say to them? That it's because you lovely people don't think I am competent enough to work in your empty shell of a stress-er game, where I go home absolutely exhausted from all the demands being made on me throughout my workday? I just don't know what to say. And in today's world, presentation counts for a whole lot. That seems to be what everyone is pounding into our heads. I just feel like I'm up against a piece of negativity day in and day out. And that my priorities turn to dust. They get devoured by the needs of the masses which I am surrounded by on a daily basis. It's not a fun condition but a stressful one.
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