Reaching for the Sky!

Redefining Self

   I am going to school to redefine myself.  I thought I was doing this for myself, but now I realize I'm doing it because in this society we need to keep up with the speed at which the world runs, in order to make a way to be ourselves and stay in flight.  Otherwise, we get sorely let down because the world does not accept us for who and what we actually are.  We are all in a fantasy world that keeps on tricking us into letting us down further and further down the tightrope.  I feel like I'm a tightrope walker, unable to break free of the spinning wheel that has me attached and is going around and around in circles with me on it, just like the mice do, running but to no end.   When does all this situation become the reality that I heard of as a younger person.  What I have discovered is that they expect me to live up to expectations but they are not living up to mine.  So who do I have to prove this to?  When all around me I see things being low on the totem pole, meanwhile unable to live up to my expectations but getting over in a big way.  Now I have lost things to thieves and things never get to the point where I want to live that way, yet I am being forced to put up with things this way, because there seems to be no way around it.  How come some people come out on top while others have to bite the dust??   We are not that different under the skin, but somehow this society and the people in it are professional markers, they mark you for who you are and they mark you for whom you're not.  I can't please every body so I'll just have to please myself.

Living on a hope

     I would like to know that I have a job of some sort when I graduate but all it seems like to me is that I am going deeper and deeper in debt with no hope of making that money back after I leave this school.  Every body is talking about abnormally high student debt at this time, but I don't see any doors opening up for me to walk through and find a way to pay it all back.  It always seems that only the lucky ones have a way to find lucrative positioning once they walk out that school door and don't have to look back.  Once again I feel that I have been inopportunely duped into believing that everything will somehow work itself out.  But only too often it gets to be a bad trick.  I wish I knew where to look for something that I feel really good about and something that I can really put my teeth into.  But only a hope and a prayer here.

Shawn's Go Fund Me is running out of time!

http://funds.gofundme.com/index.php?route=fundmanager

Something's got to give

   Why do people love to stand in the way of your progress?  I don't understand why my son is going around in circles out in Portland.  He really doesn't deserve the treatment he is receiving out there.  Things are really tight but why when this is happening do they always come down on the poor first.  So many things are turned into insurmountable treadmills to rise above.  And if you can't dance, you can't play.  It's very destructive and then they won't return phone calls.  I tried to put up a www.gofundme.com for my son, but people don't seem to care.  I don't understand the world today,  it really is a very scary place to live in and raise children in at this point.   Well, some day we may have more idealism all around, but all around me now I feel that that sense that they held in the past is no longer strong within the people of today.  Too much pain and suffering have gone under the bridge.  Well, I just hope that we can change things around.  

A great young skater

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UCh_JFfcZ_o

Beautiful ice skating

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uMHSeiynC_k